頹敗線的顫動 Tremors of Degradation

我夢見自己在做夢。I dreamed that I myself was dreaming.自身不知所在，眼前卻有一間在深夜中緊閉的小屋的內部，但也看見屋上瓦松的茂密的森林。I did not know where I myself was, but before my eyes was the interior of a small room shut tight in the depths of night, and yet I also saw, upon the roof, a dense forest of houseleek growing among the tiles.

我梦见自己在做梦。自身不知所在，眼前却有一间在深夜中紧闭的小屋的内部，但也看见屋上瓦松的茂密的森林。

板桌上的燈罩是新式的，照得屋子裏分外明亮。The lampshade on the wooden table was of a new style, and it lit the room with unusual brightness.在光明中，在破榻上，在初不相識的披毛的強悍的肉塊底下，有瘦弱渺小的身軀，爲飢餓、苦痛、驚異、羞辱、歡欣而顫動。In the light, on the broken couch, beneath a hairy, formidable mass of flesh she had not known before, a thin and tiny body trembled with hunger, pain, astonishment, shame, and joy.弛緩，然而尙且豐腴的皮膚光潤了；Her skin, slack yet still full, grew smooth and glossy;靑白的兩頰泛出輕紅，如鉛上塗了胭脂水。her pale, sallow cheeks flushed with a faint red, like rouge-water smeared on lead.

板桌上的灯罩是新式的，照得屋子里分外明亮。在光明中，在破榻上，在初不相识的披毛的强悍的肉块底下，有瘦弱渺小的身躯，为饥饿、苦痛、惊异、羞辱、欢欣而颤动。弛缓，然而尙且丰腴的皮肤光润了；靑白的两颊泛出轻红，如铅上涂了胭脂水。

燈火也因驚懼而縮小了，東方已經發白。Even the lamp flame shrank back in fright, and the east had already begun to whiten.

灯火也因惊惧而缩小了，东方已经发白。

然而空中還瀰漫地搖動着飢餓、苦痛、驚異、羞辱、歡欣的波濤……。Yet in the air there still surged, diffuse and swaying, waves of hunger, pain, astonishment, shame, and joy……

然而空中还弥漫地摇动着饥饿、苦痛、惊异、羞辱、欢欣的波涛……。

『媽！』約略兩歲的女孩被門的開闔聲驚醒，在草席圍着的屋角的地上叫起來了。'Mama!' A girl of about two, startled awake by the sound of the door opening and closing, cried out on the floor in the corner of the room enclosed by straw matting.

『妈！』约略两岁的女孩被门的开阖声惊醒，在草席围着的屋角的地上叫起来了。

『還早哩，再睡一會罷！』她驚惶地說。'It's still early, sleep a little longer!' she said, flustered.

『还早哩，再睡一会罢！』她惊惶地说。

『媽！'Mama!我餓，肚子痛。I'm hungry, my stomach hurts.我們今天能有什麽喫的？』What will we have to eat today?'

『妈！我饿，肚子痛。我们今天能有什么吃的？』

『我們今天有喫的了。'We'll have something to eat today.等一會有賣燒餅的來，媽就買給你。』她欣慰地更加緊��着掌中的小銀片，低微的聲音悲涼地發抖，走近屋角去一看她的女兒，移開草席，抱起來放在破榻上。In a little while the sesame-cake seller will come, and Mama will buy some for you.' Gratified, she clutched still more tightly the small silver coin in her palm, her low voice trembling with sorrow, and she went over to the corner to look at her daughter, moved aside the straw mat, picked her up, and laid her on the broken couch.

『我们今天有吃的了。等一会有卖烧饼的来，妈就买给你。』她欣慰地更加紧𪮆着掌中的小银片，低微的声音悲凉地发抖，走近屋角去一看她的女儿，移开草席，抱起来放在破榻上。

『還早哩，再睡一會罷。』她說着，同時擡起眼睛，無可吿訴地一看破舊的屋頂以上的天空。'It's still early, sleep a little longer,' she said, and as she spoke she raised her eyes and, with nothing to tell it to, glanced at the sky above the shabby, broken roof.

『还早哩，再睡一会罢。』她说着，同时抬起眼睛，无可吿诉地一看破旧的屋顶以上的天空。

空中突然另起了一個很大的波濤，和先前的相撞擊，回旋而成旋渦，將一切幷我盡行淹沒，口鼻都不能呼吸。Suddenly another great wave rose in the air, crashing against the one before, whirling into a vortex that engulfed everything, myself included, so that neither mouth nor nose could draw breath.

空中突然另起了一个很大的波涛，和先前的相撞击，回旋而成旋涡，将一切并我尽行淹没，口鼻都不能呼吸。

我呻吟着醒來，窗外滿是如銀的月色，離天明還很遼遠似的。I woke groaning; outside the window the moonlight lay silver over everything, and dawn seemed still very far away.

我呻吟着醒来，窗外满是如银的月色，离天明还很辽远似的。

我自身不知所在，眼前卻有一間在深夜中緊閉的小屋的內部，我自己知道是在續着殘夢。I did not know where I myself was, but before my eyes was the interior of a small room shut tight in the depths of night; I myself knew that I was continuing a broken dream.可是夢的年代隔了許多年了。But the time of the dream was now separated by many years.屋的內外已經是這樣整齊；Inside and outside the room everything was now so neat and orderly;裏面是靑年的夫妻，一羣小孩子，都怨恨鄙夷地對着一個垂老的女人。inside were a young husband and wife and a brood of small children, all turned toward an aged woman with resentment and contempt.

我自身不知所在，眼前却有一间在深夜中紧闭的小屋的内部，我自己知道是在续着残梦。可是梦的年代隔了许多年了。屋的内外已经是这样整齐；里面是靑年的夫妻，一群小孩子，都怨恨鄙夷地对着一个垂老的女人。

『我們沒有臉見人，就只因爲你，』男人氣忿地說。『你還以爲養大了她，其實正是害苦了她，倒不如小時候餓死的好！』'We have no face to show anyone, and it's all because of you,' the man said angrily. 'You still think you raised her well, but in fact you did nothing but bring her suffering — it would have been better if she'd starved to death as a child!'

『我们没有脸见人，就只因为你，』男人气忿地说。『你还以为养大了她，其实正是害苦了她，倒不如小时候饿死的好！』

『使我委屈一世的就是你！』女的說。'It's you who have wronged me my whole life!' the woman said.

『使我委屈一世的就是你！』女的说。

『還要帶累了我！』男的說。'And you've dragged me down with you as well!' the man said.

『还要带累了我！』男的说。

『還要帶累他們哩！』女的說，指着孩子們。'And dragged them down too!' the woman said, pointing at the children.

『还要带累他们哩！』女的说，指着孩子们。

最小的一個正玩着一片乾蘆葉，這時便向空中一揮，仿佛一柄鋼刀，大聲說道：『殺！』The smallest one, who had been playing with a dry reed leaf, now waved it through the air as though it were a steel blade, and shouted loudly: 'Kill!'

最小的一个正玩着一片干芦叶，这时便向空中一挥，仿佛一柄钢刀，大声说道：『杀！』

那垂老的女人口角正在痙攣，登時一怔，接着便都平靜，不多時候，她冷靜地，骨立的石像似的站起來了。The corners of the aged woman's mouth were twitching convulsively; she started for a moment, then all at once grew calm, and before long she rose to her feet, coldly, like a stone statue, gaunt to the bone.她開開板門，邁步在深夜中走出，遺棄了背後一切的冷罵和毒笑。She opened the wooden door and strode out into the depths of night, leaving behind her all the cold curses and venomous laughter.

那垂老的女人口角正在痉挛，登时一怔，接着便都平静，不多时候，她冷静地，骨立的石像似的站起来了。她开开板门，迈步在深夜中走出，遗弃了背后一切的冷骂和毒笑。

她在深夜中儘走，一直走到無邊的荒野；She walked on and on through the depths of night, walking all the way to the boundless wilderness;四面都是荒野，頭上只有高天，並無一個蟲鳥飛過。on every side lay wasteland, overhead only the high sky, and not a single insect or bird flew past.她赤身露體地，石像似的站在荒野的中央，于一剎那間照見過往的一切：飢餓，苦痛，驚異，羞辱，歡欣，于是發抖，害苦，委屈，帶累，于是痙攣；Naked, bare-bodied, she stood like a stone statue in the middle of the wilderness, and in a single instant she saw illuminated all that had passed: hunger, pain, astonishment, shame, joy — and so, trembling; suffering, wronging, being dragged down — and so, convulsion;殺，于是平靜。……kill — and so, stillness.……又于一剎那間將一切倂合：眷念與決絕，愛撫與復讎，養育與殲除，祝福與咒詛……。And in another instant she fused it all together: attachment and renunciation, tenderness and vengeance, nurture and annihilation, blessing and cursing……她于是舉兩手儘量向天，口脣間漏出人與獸的，非人間所有，所以無詞的言語。Then she raised both hands as high as she could toward the sky, and from between her lips there escaped a language of both human and beast, one not possessed by this human world, and therefore wordless.

她在深夜中尽走，一直走到无边的荒野；四面都是荒野，头上只有高天，并无一个虫鸟飞过。她赤身露体地，石像似的站在荒野的中央，于一刹那间照见过往的一切：饥饿，苦痛，惊异，羞辱，欢欣，于是发抖，害苦，委屈，带累，于是痉挛；杀，于是平静。……又于一刹那间将一切倂合：眷念与决绝，爱抚与复雠，养育与歼除，祝福与咒诅……。她于是举两手尽量向天，口唇间漏出人与兽的，非人间所有，所以无词的言语。

當她說出無詞的言語時，她那偉大如石像，然而已經荒廢的，頹敗的身軀的全面都顫動了。As she uttered this wordless language, her whole body — great as a stone statue, yet already ruined, degenerate — trembled all over.這顫動點點如魚鱗，每一鱗都起伏如沸水在烈火上；This trembling was speckled like fish scales, each scale rising and falling like water boiling over a fierce fire;空中也卽刻一同振顫，仿佛暴風雨中的荒海的波濤。and at once the air quivered together with her, like the waves of a desolate sea in a storm.

当她说出无词的言语时，她那伟大如石像，然而已经荒废的，颓败的身躯的全面都颤动了。这颤动点点如鱼鳞，每一鳞都起伏如沸水在烈火上；空中也即刻一同振颤，仿佛暴风雨中的荒海的波涛。

她于是擡起眼睛向着天空，幷無詞的言語也沈默盡絕，惟有顫動，輻射若太陽光，使空中的波濤立刻回旋，如遭颶風，洶湧奔騰于無邊的荒野。Then she raised her eyes toward the sky, and even the wordless language fell utterly silent; there remained only the trembling, radiating like sunlight, which made the waves in the air whirl at once, as though struck by a hurricane, surging and racing across the boundless wilderness.

她于是抬起眼睛向着天空，并无词的言语也沈默尽绝，惟有颤动，辐射若太阳光，使空中的波涛立刻回旋，如遭飓风，汹涌奔腾于无边的荒野。

我夢魘了，自己卻知道是因爲將手擱在胸脯上了的緣故；I was in the grip of a nightmare, yet I myself knew it was because I had laid my hand upon my chest;我夢中還用盡平生之力，要將這十分沈重的手移開。and in my dream I still used all the strength I had in my whole life, trying to move that exceedingly heavy hand away.

我梦魇了，自己却知道是因为将手搁在胸脯上了的缘故；我梦中还用尽平生之力，要将这十分沈重的手移开。

（一九二五年六月二十九日。）(June 29, 1925.)