范愛農 Fan Ainong

在東京的客店裏，我們大抵一起來就看報。At the inn in Tokyo, most mornings as soon as we got up we would read the newspapers.學生所看的多是《朝日新聞》和《讀賣新聞》，專愛打聽社會上瑣事的就看《二六新聞》。What the students read was mostly the Asahi Shimbun and the Yomiuri Shimbun; those who loved prying into petty social gossip read the Niroku Shimbun.一天早晨，闢頭就看見一條從中國來的電報，大概是：——One morning, right at the top, we saw a telegram from China; it read something like:—

在东京的客店里，我们大抵一起来就看报。学生所看的多是《朝日新闻》和《读卖新闻》，专爱打听社会上琐事的就看《二六新闻》。一天早晨，辟头就看见一条从中国来的电报，大概是：——

“安徽巡撫恩銘被Jo Shiki Rin刺殺，刺客就擒。”"The Anhui governor En Ming has been assassinated by Jo Shiki Rin; the assassin has been captured."

“安徽巡抚恩铭被Jo Shiki Rin刺杀，刺客就擒。”

大家一怔之後，便容光煥發地互相告語，並且研究這刺客是誰，漢字是怎樣三個字。After a moment's shock, everyone brightened up and began telling each other the news, trying to work out who this assassin was and what three Chinese characters his name was written with.但只要是紹興人，又不專看教科書的，卻早已明白了。But anyone who was from Shaoxing, and who didn't read only textbooks, already knew perfectly well.這是徐錫麟，他留學回國之後，在做安徽候補道，辦著巡警事務，正合於刺殺巡撫的地位。This was Xu Xilin. After returning from studying abroad, he had become an expectant circuit intendant in Anhui, in charge of police affairs — a position perfectly suited for assassinating the governor.

大家一怔之后，便容光焕发地互相告语，并且研究这刺客是谁，汉字是怎样三个字。但只要是绍兴人，又不专看教科书的，却早已明白了。这是徐锡麟，他留学回国之后，在做安徽候补道，办著巡警事务，正合于刺杀巡抚的地位。

大家接著就預測他將被極刑，家族將被連累。Everyone went on to predict that he would be given the most extreme punishment, and that his family would be implicated.不久，秋瑾姑娘在紹興被殺的消息也傳來了，徐錫麟是被挖了心，給恩銘的親兵炒食凈盡。Before long, news also arrived that Miss Qiu Jin had been killed in Shaoxing, and that Xu Xilin's heart had been cut out and fried and eaten entirely by En Ming's bodyguards.人心很憤怒。People's hearts were filled with fury.有幾個人便秘密地開一個會，籌集川資；A few people secretly held a meeting to raise travel funds;這時用得著日本浪人了，撕烏賊魚下酒，慷慨一通之後，他便登程去接徐伯蓀的家屬去。This was when the Japanese rōnin proved useful — after tearing at dried squid to go with the wine and delivering a stirring speech, he set off to fetch Xu Bosun's family.

大家接著就预测他将被极刑，家族将被连累。不久，秋瑾姑娘在绍兴被杀的消息也传来了，徐锡麟是被挖了心，给恩铭的亲兵炒食净尽。人心很愤怒。有几个人便秘密地开一个会，筹集川资；这时用得著日本浪人了，撕乌贼鱼下酒，慷慨一通之后，他便登程去接徐伯荪的家属去。

照例還有一個同鄉會，弔烈士，罵滿洲；As custom required, there was also a fellow-provincials' meeting, to mourn the martyr and curse the Manchus;此後便有人主張打電報到北京，痛斥滿政府的無人道。After that, someone proposed sending a telegram to Beijing, bitterly denouncing the inhumanity of the Manchu government.會眾即刻分成兩派：一派要發電，一派不要發。The assembly immediately split into two factions: one wanted to send the telegram, the other did not.我是主張發電的，但當我說出之後，即有一種鈍滯的聲音跟著起來：I was in favor of sending it, but no sooner had I spoken than a dull, sluggish voice rose up in response:

照例还有一个同乡会，吊烈士，骂满洲；此后便有人主张打电报到北京，痛斥满政府的无人道。会众即刻分成两派：一派要发电，一派不要发。我是主张发电的，但当我说出之后，即有一种钝滞的声音跟著起来：

“殺的殺掉了，死的死掉了，還發什麽屁電報呢。”"The killed have been killed, the dead are dead — what's the use of sending some damned telegram?"

“杀的杀掉了，死的死掉了，还发什么屁电报呢。”

這是一個高大身材，長頭髮，眼球白多黑少的人，看人總象在渺視。This was a tall, big-framed man with long hair, whose eyeballs showed more white than black, so that he always seemed to be looking down on people.他蹲在席子上，我發言大抵就反對；He was squatting on the mat, and whenever I spoke, he would generally object;我早覺得奇怪，註意著他的了，到這時才打聽別人：說這話的是誰呢，有那麽冷？I had already found this strange and had been keeping an eye on him; only now did I ask someone else: who was it that had said that, to be so coldly indifferent?認識的人告訴我說：他叫范愛農，是徐伯蓀的學生。Someone who knew him told me: his name was Fan Ainong, and he was a student of Xu Bosun's.

这是一个高大身材，长头发，眼球白多黑少的人，看人总象在渺视。他蹲在席子上，我发言大抵就反对；我早觉得奇怪，注意著他的了，到这时才打听别人：说这话的是谁呢，有那么冷？认识的人告诉我说：他叫范爱农，是徐伯荪的学生。

我非常憤怒了，覺得他簡直不是人，自己的先生被殺了，連打一個電報還害怕，於是便堅執地主張要發電，同他爭起來。I became extremely angry, thinking he was simply inhuman — his own teacher had been killed, and he was even afraid to send a telegram — so I insisted all the more firmly that we should send it, and began arguing with him.結果是主張發電的居多數，他屈服了。In the end, those in favor of sending the telegram were the majority, and he gave in.其次要推出人來擬電稿。Next, someone had to be chosen to draft the telegram.

我非常愤怒了，觉得他简直不是人，自己的先生被杀了，连打一个电报还害怕，于是便坚执地主张要发电，同他争起来。结果是主张发电的居多数，他屈服了。其次要推出人来拟电稿。

“何必推舉呢？"Why bother electing someone?自然是主張發電的人囉﹋﹋。”他說。Naturally it should be one of the people who wanted to send it—" he said.

“何必推举呢？自然是主张发电的人啰﹋﹋。”他说。

我覺得他的話又在針對我，無理，倒也並非無理的。I felt that his words were again aimed at me — unreasonable, and yet, not entirely unreasonable either.但我便主張這一篇悲壯的文章必須深知烈士生平的人做，因為他比別人關係更密切，心裏更悲憤，做出來就一定更動人。But I argued that this solemn, tragic piece must be written by someone who knew the martyr's life well, because he would be more closely connected than others, his heart more grieved and indignant, and so what he wrote would surely be more moving.於是又爭起來。So we started arguing again.結果是他不做，我也不做，不知誰承認做去了；In the end, he wouldn't do it, and I wouldn't do it either; I don't know who it was that finally agreed to take it on;其次是大家走散，只留下一個擬稿的和一兩個幹事，等候做好之後去拍發。After that, everyone dispersed, leaving only the one drafting it and one or two organizers behind, waiting for it to be finished so it could be sent off.

我觉得他的话又在针对我，无理，倒也并非无理的。但我便主张这一篇悲壮的文章必须深知烈士生平的人做，因为他比别人关系更密切，心里更悲愤，做出来就一定更动人。于是又争起来。结果是他不做，我也不做，不知谁承认做去了；其次是大家走散，只留下一个拟稿的和一两个干事，等候做好之后去拍发。

從此我總覺得這范愛農離奇，而且很可惡。From then on, I always felt this Fan Ainong was strange, and thoroughly detestable.天下可惡的人，當初以為是滿人，這時才知道還在其次；Of all the detestable people in the world, I had at first thought the Manchus were the worst; only now did I realize they came second;第一倒是范愛農。First place, actually, was Fan Ainong.中國不革命則已，要革命，首先就必須將范愛農除去。If China was not to have a revolution, well and good; but if there was to be one, the first thing necessary would be to get rid of Fan Ainong.

从此我总觉得这范爱农离奇，而且很可恶。天下可恶的人，当初以为是满人，这时才知道还在其次；第一倒是范爱农。中国不革命则已，要革命，首先就必须将范爱农除去。

然而這意見後來似乎逐漸淡薄，到底忘卻了，我們從此也沒有再見面。But this opinion of mine seemed gradually to fade afterward, and in the end I forgot it altogether; from then on we never met again.直到革命的前一年，我在故鄉做教員，大概是春末時候罷，忽然在熟人的客座上看見了一個人，互相熟視了不過兩三秒鐘，我們便同時說：Not until the year before the revolution, when I was teaching in my hometown — it was probably around late spring — did I suddenly see a man sitting as a guest at an acquaintance's house; we stared hard at each other for no more than two or three seconds, and then we said, at the same moment:

然而这意见后来似乎逐渐淡薄，到底忘却了，我们从此也没有再见面。直到革命的前一年，我在故乡做教员，大概是春末时候罢，忽然在熟人的客座上看见了一个人，互相熟视了不过两三秒钟，我们便同时说：

“哦哦，你是范愛農！”"Oh, oh — you're Fan Ainong!"

“哦哦，你是范爱农！”

“哦哦，你是魯迅！”"Oh, oh — you're Lu Xun!"

“哦哦，你是鲁迅！”

不知怎地我們便都笑了起來，是互相的嘲笑和悲哀。Somehow we both burst out laughing — a laughter of mutual mockery and sorrow.他眼睛還是那樣，然而奇怪，只這幾年，頭上卻有了白髮了，但也許本來就有，我先前沒有留心到。His eyes were still the same as before, yet strangely, in just these few years, white hair had appeared on his head — though perhaps it had already been there and I simply hadn't noticed before.他穿著很舊的布馬褂，破布鞋，顯得很寒素。He wore a very worn cotton mandarin jacket and tattered cloth shoes, looking quite poor and shabby.談起自己的經歷來，他說他後來沒有了學費，不能再留學，便回來了。Speaking of his own experiences, he said that afterward he had run out of money for tuition, could no longer continue studying abroad, and so had come home.回到故鄉之後，又受著輕蔑，排斥，迫害，幾乎無地可容。After returning to his hometown, he had suffered contempt, exclusion, and persecution, until there was hardly anywhere he could find a place for himself.現在是躲在鄉下，教著幾個小學生糊口。Now he was hiding away in the countryside, teaching a handful of primary school pupils to scrape a living.但因為有時覺得很氣悶，所以也趁了航船進城來。But because at times he felt terribly stifled, he would take the ferry into town.

不知怎地我们便都笑了起来，是互相的嘲笑和悲哀。他眼睛还是那样，然而奇怪，只这几年，头上却有了白发了，但也许本来就有，我先前没有留心到。他穿著很旧的布马褂，破布鞋，显得很寒素。谈起自己的经历来，他说他后来没有了学费，不能再留学，便回来了。回到故乡之后，又受著轻蔑，排斥，迫害，几乎无地可容。现在是躲在乡下，教著几个小学生糊口。但因为有时觉得很气闷，所以也趁了航船进城来。

他又告訴我現在愛喝酒，於是我們便喝酒。He also told me that he had grown fond of drinking now, so the two of us drank together.從此他每一進城，必定來訪我，非常相熟了。From then on, every time he came into town he was sure to visit me, and we grew very close.我們醉後常談些愚不可及的瘋話，連母親偶然聽到了也發笑。When drunk, we often talked the most hopelessly foolish nonsense, so that even my mother, overhearing us now and then, would laugh.一天我忽而記起在東京開同鄉會時的舊事，便問他：One day I suddenly remembered the old business of the fellow-provincials' meeting in Tokyo, and asked him:

他又告诉我现在爱喝酒，于是我们便喝酒。从此他每一进城，必定来访我，非常相熟了。我们醉后常谈些愚不可及的疯话，连母亲偶然听到了也发笑。一天我忽而记起在东京开同乡会时的旧事，便问他：

“那一天你專門反對我，而且故意似的，究竟是什麽緣故呢？”"That day, you went out of your way to oppose me, and it seemed deliberate — what was the reason for that, really?"

“那一天你专门反对我，而且故意似的，究竟是什么缘故呢？”

“你還不知道？"You still don't know?我一向就討厭你的，——不但我，我們。”I've disliked you all along — and not just me, all of us."

“你还不知道？我一向就讨厌你的，——不但我，我们。”

“你那時之前，早知道我是誰麽？”"Did you already know who I was, before that time?"

“你那时之前，早知道我是谁么？”

“怎麽不知道。"Of course I knew.我們到橫濱，來接的不就是子英和你麽？When we arrived at Yokohama, wasn't it Ziying and you who came to meet us?你看不起我們，搖搖頭，你自己還記得麽？”You looked down on us and shook your head — do you yourself still remember that?"

“怎么不知道。我们到横滨，来接的不就是子英和你么？你看不起我们，摇摇头，你自己还记得么？”

我略略一想，記得的，雖然是七八年前的事。I thought about it a little, and I did remember, though it was something from seven or eight years before.那時是子英來約我的，說到橫濱去接新來留學的同鄉。At the time, Ziying had come to ask me along, saying we were going to Yokohama to meet fellow-provincials newly arrived to study abroad.汽船一到，看見一大堆，大概一共有十多人，一上岸便將行李放到稅關上去候查檢，關吏在衣箱中翻來翻去，忽然翻出一雙繡花的弓鞋來，便放下公事，拿著子細地看。As soon as the steamer arrived, I saw a whole crowd of them — probably more than ten people in all — and as soon as they landed they put their luggage at the customs house to wait for inspection; the customs officer rummaged through a clothing trunk and suddenly turned up a pair of embroidered lotus-foot shoes, whereupon he set his official business aside and examined them closely.我很不滿，心裏想，這些鳥男人，怎麽帶這東西來呢。I felt quite put out, thinking to myself: these damned men, why on earth would they bring a thing like this along?自己不注意，那時也許就搖了搖頭。Without noticing it myself, I probably shook my head at that moment.檢驗完畢，在客店小坐之後，即須上火車。Once the inspection was over, after sitting a while at the inn, we had to board the train.不料這一群讀書人又在客車上讓起坐位來了，甲要乙坐在這位上，乙要丙去坐，揖讓未終，火車已開，車身一搖，即刻跌倒了三四個。Unexpectedly, this crowd of scholars started up again in the railway carriage, this time deferring over seats — A wanted B to sit here, B wanted C to sit there — and before the bowing and yielding was finished, the train had already started; with one lurch of the carriage, three or four of them immediately fell over.我那時也很不滿，暗地裏想：連火車上的坐位，他們也要分出尊卑來……。I was quite displeased at that too, thinking to myself privately: even over train seats, they have to sort out who ranks higher and who ranks lower…自己不注意，也許又搖了搖頭。Without noticing it myself, I probably shook my head again.然而那群雍容揖讓的人物中就有范愛農，卻直到這一天才想到。Yet among that crowd of dignified, bowing, yielding figures was none other than Fan Ainong — though I only thought of this on this very day.豈但他呢，說起來也慚愧，這一群裏，還有後來在安徽戰死的陳伯平烈士，被害的馬宗漢烈士；And not only him — it's shameful to admit, but in that group there was also the martyr Chen Boping, who later died fighting in Anhui, and the martyr Ma Zonghan, who was murdered;被囚在黑獄裏，到革命後才見天日而身上永帶著匪刑的傷痕的也還有一兩人。and there were one or two others besides who were thrown into a dark prison and did not see daylight again until after the revolution, their bodies forever bearing the scars of savage torture.而我都茫無所知，搖著頭將他們一併運上東京了。Yet I had known nothing of any of it, and, shaking my head, had carried them all off to Tokyo together.徐伯蓀雖然和他們同船來，卻不在這車上，因為他在神戶就和他的夫人坐車走了陸路了。Although Xu Bosun had crossed on the same ship as they had, he was not on this train, because at Kobe he had already left by carriage with his wife to travel overland.

我略略一想，记得的，虽然是七八年前的事。那时是子英来约我的，说到横滨去接新来留学的同乡。汽船一到，看见一大堆，大概一共有十多人，一上岸便将行李放到税关上去候查检，关吏在衣箱中翻来翻去，忽然翻出一双绣花的弓鞋来，便放下公事，拿著子细地看。我很不满，心里想，这些鸟男人，怎么带这东西来呢。自己不注意，那时也许就摇了摇头。检验完毕，在客店小坐之后，即须上火车。不料这一群读书人又在客车上让起坐位来了，甲要乙坐在这位上，乙要丙去坐，揖让未终，火车已开，车身一摇，即刻跌倒了三四个。我那时也很不满，暗地里想：连火车上的坐位，他们也要分出尊卑来……。自己不注意，也许又摇了摇头。然而那群雍容揖让的人物中就有范爱农，却直到这一天才想到。岂但他呢，说起来也惭愧，这一群里，还有后来在安徽战死的陈伯平烈士，被害的马宗汉烈士；被囚在黑狱里，到革命后才见天日而身上永带著匪刑的伤痕的也还有一两人。而我都茫无所知，摇著头将他们一并运上东京了。徐伯荪虽然和他们同船来，却不在这车上，因为他在神户就和他的夫人坐车走了陆路了。

我想我那時搖頭大約有兩回，他們看見的不知道是那一回。I think I must have shaken my head about twice on that occasion; I don't know which of the two times it was that they saw.讓坐時喧鬧，檢查時幽靜，一定是在稅關上的那一回了，試問愛農，果然是的。Since the seat-yielding was noisy while the customs inspection was quiet, it must have been the time at the customs house — I asked Ainong to check, and indeed it was.

我想我那时摇头大约有两回，他们看见的不知道是那一回。让坐时喧闹，检查时幽静，一定是在税关上的那一回了，试问爱农，果然是的。

“我真不懂你們帶這東西做什麽？"I really don't understand what you people brought that thing for.是誰的？”Whose was it?"

“我真不懂你们带这东西做什么？是谁的？”

“還不是我們師母的？”他瞪著他多白的眼。"Whose else but our teacher's wife's?" he said, glaring at me with those eyes of his that showed so much white.

“还不是我们师母的？”他瞪著他多白的眼。

“到東京就要假裝大腳，又何必帶這東西呢？”"Once she got to Tokyo she was going to pretend to have big feet — so why bring that thing along at all?"

“到东京就要假装大脚，又何必带这东西呢？”

“誰知道呢？"Who knows?你問她去。”Go and ask her yourself."

“谁知道呢？你问她去。”

到冬初，我們的景況更拮据了，然而還喝酒，講笑話。By early winter, our circumstances had grown even more straitened, yet we still drank and joked.忽然是武昌起義，接著是紹興光復。Then suddenly came the Wuchang Uprising, followed by the liberation of Shaoxing.第二天愛農就上城來，戴著農夫常用的氈帽，那笑容是從來沒有見過的。The very next day Ainong came into town, wearing the felt hat that peasants commonly used, with a smile on his face the like of which I had never seen before.

到冬初，我们的景况更拮据了，然而还喝酒，讲笑话。忽然是武昌起义，接著是绍兴光复。第二天爱农就上城来，戴著农夫常用的毡帽，那笑容是从来没有见过的。

“老迅，我們今天不喝酒了。"Old Xun, we're not drinking today.我要去看看光復的紹興。I want to go and see Shaoxing now that it's liberated.我們同去。”Let's go together."

“老迅，我们今天不喝酒了。我要去看看光复的绍兴。我们同去。”

我們便到街上去走了一通，滿眼是白旗。So we went out and walked around the streets for a while; everywhere we looked were white flags.然而貌雖如此，內骨子是依舊的，因為還是幾個舊鄉紳所組織的軍政府，什麽鐵路股東是行政司長，錢店掌櫃是軍械司長……。Yet, though the surface looked like that, underneath the bones were still the same as before, for the military government was still organized by a handful of the old local gentry — some railway shareholder was made head of civil administration, some money-shop proprietor was made head of ordnance…這軍政府也到底不長久，幾個少年一嚷，王金發帶兵從杭州進來了，但即使不嚷或者也會來。In the end this military government did not last long either; a few young men raised an outcry, and Wang Jinfa led troops in from Hangzhou — though even without the outcry, he probably would have come anyway.他進來以後，也就被許多閑漢和新進的革命黨所包圍，大做王都督。After he came in, he too was soon surrounded by a crowd of idlers and newly-arrived revolutionaries, and set about grandly playing the role of Military Governor Wang.在衙門裏的人物，穿布衣來的，不上十天也大概換上皮袍子了，天氣還並不冷。Among the figures in the yamen, those who had come in wearing cotton clothes had, within ten days or so, mostly changed into fur robes, even though the weather was not yet cold.

我们便到街上去走了一通，满眼是白旗。然而貌虽如此，内骨子是依旧的，因为还是几个旧乡绅所组织的军政府，什么铁路股东是行政司长，钱店掌柜是军械司长……。这军政府也到底不长久，几个少年一嚷，王金发带兵从杭州进来了，但即使不嚷或者也会来。他进来以后，也就被许多闲汉和新进的革命党所包围，大做王都督。在衙门里的人物，穿布衣来的，不上十天也大概换上皮袍子了，天气还并不冷。

我被擺在師範學校校長的飯碗旁邊，王都督給了我校款二百元。I was set down beside the rice bowl of principal of the normal school, and Governor Wang gave me two hundred yuan in school funds.愛農做監學，還是那件布袍子，但不大喝酒了，也很少有工夫談閑天。Ainong served as the supervisor of studies, still wearing that same cotton gown, but he no longer drank much, and had little time left over for idle chat.他辦事，兼教書，實在勤快得可以。He handled administrative work and taught classes besides, and was truly diligent to a remarkable degree.

我被摆在师范学校校长的饭碗旁边，王都督给了我校款二百元。爱农做监学，还是那件布袍子，但不大喝酒了，也很少有工夫谈闲天。他办事，兼教书，实在勤快得可以。

“情形還是不行，王金發他們。”一個去年聽過我的講義的少年來訪我，慷慨地說，“我們要辦一種報來監督他們。"Things still aren't right — Wang Jinfa and his lot." A young man who had attended my lectures the year before came to visit me and said, with great fervor, "We want to start a newspaper to keep watch over them.不過發起人要借用先生的名字。Only, the sponsors need to borrow your name, sir.還有一個是子英先生，一個是德清先生。There's also Mr. Ziying, and Mr. Deqing.為社會，我們知道你決不推卻的。”For the sake of society, we know you would never refuse."

“情形还是不行，王金发他们。”一个去年听过我的讲义的少年来访我，慷慨地说，“我们要办一种报来监督他们。不过发起人要借用先生的名字。还有一个是子英先生，一个是德清先生。为社会，我们知道你决不推却的。”

我答應他了。I agreed to it.兩天後便看見出報的傳單，發起人誠然是三個。Two days later I saw the handbill announcing the newspaper; the sponsors were indeed three in number.五天後便見報，開首便罵軍政府和那裏面的人員；Five days later the paper itself appeared, and right from the start it denounced the military government and the people in it;此後是罵都督、都督的親戚、同鄉、姨太太……。after that it went on to denounce the Military Governor, the Governor's relatives, fellow-provincials, concubines…

我答应他了。两天后便看见出报的传单，发起人诚然是三个。五天后便见报，开首便骂军政府和那里面的人员；此后是骂都督、都督的亲戚、同乡、姨太太……。

這樣地罵了十多天，就有一種消息傳到我的家裏來，說都督因為你們詐取了他的錢，還罵他，要派人用手槍來打死你們了。After more than ten days of this denouncing, a piece of news reached my home, saying that the Governor, because you people had swindled money out of him and then denounced him besides, was going to send someone with a pistol to shoot you all dead.

这样地骂了十多天，就有一种消息传到我的家里来，说都督因为你们诈取了他的钱，还骂他，要派人用手枪来打死你们了。

別人倒還不打緊，第一個著急的是我的母親，叮囑我不要再出去。It didn't matter much to the others, but the first to grow anxious was my mother, who urged me not to go out anymore.但我還是照常走，並且說明，王金發是不來打死我們的，他雖然綠林大學出身，而殺人卻不很輕易。But I went about as usual, and explained that Wang Jinfa was not going to come and kill us; although he had graduated, so to speak, from the university of the greenwood bandits, he did not kill people very readily.況且我拿的是校款，這一點他還能明白的，不過說說罷了。Besides, what I had taken was school funds, and that much he was capable of understanding; it was probably just talk.

别人倒还不打紧，第一个著急的是我的母亲，叮嘱我不要再出去。但我还是照常走，并且说明，王金发是不来打死我们的，他虽然绿林大学出身，而杀人却不很轻易。况且我拿的是校款，这一点他还能明白的，不过说说罢了。

果然沒有來殺。And indeed, no one came to kill us.寫信去要經費，又取了二百元。I wrote a letter asking for funds, and got another two hundred yuan.但仿佛有些怒意，同時傳令道：再來要，沒有了！But there seemed to be some anger behind it, and at the same time word was passed down: if you come asking again, there'll be none left!

果然没有来杀。写信去要经费，又取了二百元。但仿佛有些怒意，同时传令道：再来要，没有了！

不過愛農得到了一種新消息，卻使我很為難。However, Ainong got hold of a piece of new information that put me in a very difficult position.原來所謂“詐取”者，並非指學校經費而言，是指另有送給報館的一筆款。It turned out that the so-called "swindling" did not refer to the school funds at all, but to another separate sum of money that had been given to the newspaper office.報紙上罵了幾天之後，王金發便叫人送去了五百元。After the paper had been denouncing him for a few days, Wang Jinfa had someone send over five hundred yuan.於是乎我們的少年們便開起會議來，第一個問題是：收不收？Whereupon our young men held a meeting; the first question was: should we accept it or not?決議曰：收。The resolution was: accept it.第二個問題是：收了之後罵不罵？The second question was: after accepting it, should we go on denouncing him or not?決議曰：罵。The resolution was: denounce him.理由是：收錢之後，他是股東；The reasoning was: once the money was accepted, he became a shareholder;股東不好，自然要罵。and if a shareholder is no good, then of course he must be denounced.

不过爱农得到了一种新消息，却使我很为难。原来所谓“诈取”者，并非指学校经费而言，是指另有送给报馆的一笔款。报纸上骂了几天之后，王金发便叫人送去了五百元。于是乎我们的少年们便开起会议来，第一个问题是：收不收？决议曰：收。第二个问题是：收了之后骂不骂？决议曰：骂。理由是：收钱之后，他是股东；股东不好，自然要骂。

我即刻到報館去問這事的真假。I went to the newspaper office at once to ask whether this was true or not.都是真的。It was all true.略說了幾句不該收他錢的話，一個名為會計的便不高興了，質問我道：I said a few words to the effect that they shouldn't have taken his money, whereupon a man who called himself the accountant grew displeased and demanded of me:

我即刻到报馆去问这事的真假。都是真的。略说了几句不该收他钱的话，一个名为会计的便不高兴了，质问我道：

“報館為什麽不收股本？”"Why doesn't the newspaper office accept capital contributions?"

“报馆为什么不收股本？”

“這不是股本……。”"This isn't capital..."

“这不是股本……。”

“不是股本是什麽？”"If it's not capital, what is it?"

“不是股本是什么？”

我就不再說下去了，這一點世故是早已知道的，倘我再說出連累我們的話來，他就會面斥我太愛惜不值錢的生命，不肯為社會犧牲，或者明天在報上就可以看見我怎樣怕死發抖的記載。I said nothing more — this bit of worldly wisdom I had long since learned; if I went on saying things that might implicate us, he would denounce me to my face for prizing my own worthless life too dearly, unwilling to sacrifice myself for society, or perhaps the next day the newspaper would carry an account of how I trembled with fear of death.

我就不再说下去了，这一点世故是早已知道的，倘我再说出连累我们的话来，他就会面斥我太爱惜不值钱的生命，不肯为社会牺牲，或者明天在报上就可以看见我怎样怕死发抖的记载。

然而事情很湊巧，季茀寫信來催我往南京了。But as it happened, things worked out conveniently — Jifu wrote urging me to go to Nanjing.愛農也很贊成，但頗淒涼，說：——Ainong quite approved too, but rather sorrowfully, said:—

然而事情很凑巧，季茀写信来催我往南京了。爱农也很赞成，但颇凄凉，说：——

“這裏又是那樣，住不得。"Things here are the same as before — one can't stay.你快去罷……。”You'd better go quickly..."

“这里又是那样，住不得。你快去罢……。”

我懂得他無聲的話，決計往南京。I understood his unspoken meaning and resolved to go to Nanjing.先到都督府去辭職，自然照准，派來了一個拖鼻涕的接收員，我交出賬目和餘款一角又兩銅元，不是校長了。I first went to the Military Governor's office to resign, which was of course approved at once; a snot-nosed receiver was sent to take things over, and once I had handed over the accounts and the remaining funds — one jiao and two coppers — I was no longer principal.後任是孔教會會長傅力臣。My successor was Fu Lichen, head of the Confucian Association.

我懂得他无声的话，决计往南京。先到都督府去辞职，自然照准，派来了一个拖鼻涕的接收员，我交出账目和余款一角又两铜元，不是校长了。后任是孔教会会长傅力臣。

報館案是我到南京後兩三個星期了結的，被一群兵們搗毀。The newspaper-office affair was settled two or three weeks after I reached Nanjing — the office had been wrecked by a mob of soldiers.子英在鄉下，沒有事；Ziying was out in the countryside and came to no harm;德清適值在城裏，大腿上被刺了一尖刀。Deqing happened to be in the city, and was stabbed in the thigh with a knife point.他大怒了。He was furious.自然，這是很有些痛的，怪他不得。Naturally it was quite painful, so one could hardly blame him.他大怒之後，脫下衣服，照了一張照片，以顯示一寸來寬的刀傷，並且做一篇文章敘述情形，向各處分送，宣傳軍政府的橫暴。After his fury, he took off his clothes and had a photograph taken to show the knife wound, about an inch wide, and also wrote an article describing what had happened, sending it around everywhere to publicize the tyranny of the military government.我想，這種照片現在是大約未必還有人收藏著了，尺寸太小，刀傷縮小到幾乎等於無，如果不加說明，看見的人一定以為是帶些瘋氣的風流人物的裸體照片，倘遇見孫傳芳大帥，還怕要被禁止的。I think that by now probably no one still keeps such a photograph — the print was too small, and the wound was reduced to almost nothing, so that anyone who saw it without an explanation would surely have taken it for a nude photo of some slightly mad romantic figure, and had it fallen into the hands of Marshal Sun Chuanfang, it might well have been banned.

报馆案是我到南京后两三个星期了结的，被一群兵们捣毁。子英在乡下，没有事；德清适值在城里，大腿上被刺了一尖刀。他大怒了。自然，这是很有些痛的，怪他不得。他大怒之后，脱下衣服，照了一张照片，以显示一寸来宽的刀伤，并且做一篇文章叙述情形，向各处分送，宣传军政府的横暴。我想，这种照片现在是大约未必还有人收藏著了，尺寸太小，刀伤缩小到几乎等于无，如果不加说明，看见的人一定以为是带些疯气的风流人物的裸体照片，倘遇见孙传芳大帅，还怕要被禁止的。

我從南京移到北京的時候，愛農的學監也被孔教會會長的校長設法去掉了。By the time I moved from Nanjing to Beijing, Ainong's post as supervisor of studies had also been schemed away by the head of the Confucian Association, who was now principal.他又成了革命前的愛農。He had become once again the Ainong he had been before the revolution.我想為他在北京尋一點小事做，這是他非常希望的，然而沒有機會。I wanted to find him some small job in Beijing, which was exactly what he hoped for, but there was no opportunity.他後來便到一個熟人的家裏去寄食，也時時給我信，景況愈困窮，言辭也愈淒苦。Later he went to lodge and take his meals at the home of an acquaintance, and he often wrote to me; the more straitened his circumstances grew, the more sorrowful his words became.終於又非走出這熟人的家不可，便在各處飄浮。In the end he was forced to leave this acquaintance's house as well, and drifted about from place to place.不久，忽然從同鄉那裏得到一個消息，說他已經掉在水裏，淹死了。Not long after, I suddenly received word from a fellow townsman that he had fallen into the water and drowned.

我从南京移到北京的时候，爱农的学监也被孔教会会长的校长设法去掉了。他又成了革命前的爱农。我想为他在北京寻一点小事做，这是他非常希望的，然而没有机会。他后来便到一个熟人的家里去寄食，也时时给我信，景况愈困穷，言辞也愈凄苦。终于又非走出这熟人的家不可，便在各处飘浮。不久，忽然从同乡那里得到一个消息，说他已经掉在水里，淹死了。

我疑心他是自殺。I suspected he had killed himself.因為他是浮水的好手，不容易淹死的。For he was an excellent swimmer, not someone who would easily drown.

我疑心他是自杀。因为他是浮水的好手，不容易淹死的。

夜間獨坐在會館裏，十分悲涼，又疑心這消息並不確，但無端又覺得這是極其可靠的，雖然並無證據。Sitting alone at night in the guild hall, I felt utterly desolate; I also suspected the news might not be accurate, yet for no reason at all I also felt it was entirely reliable, though there was no evidence whatsoever.一點法子都沒有，只做了四首詩，後來曾在一種日報上發表，現在是將要忘記完了。There was nothing at all I could do, so I only wrote four poems, which were later published in a certain daily newspaper; by now I have almost entirely forgotten them.只記得一首裏的六句，起首四句是：“把酒論天下，先生小酒人，大圜猶酩酊，微醉合沉淪。”中間忘掉兩句，末了是“舊朋雲散盡，余亦等輕塵。”I remember only six lines from one of them; the first four were: "Cup in hand we discoursed on the world — you, sir, a lesser tippler; the whole wide world is still besotted, a slight drunkenness suits its sinking." The two middle lines I have forgotten; the last were: "Old friends have scattered like clouds, and I too am but light dust."

夜间独坐在会馆里，十分悲凉，又疑心这消息并不确，但无端又觉得这是极其可靠的，虽然并无证据。一点法子都没有，只做了四首诗，后来曾在一种日报上发表，现在是将要忘记完了。只记得一首里的六句，起首四句是：“把酒论天下，先生小酒人，大圜犹酩酊，微醉合沉沦。”中间忘掉两句，末了是“旧朋云散尽，余亦等轻尘。”

後來我回故鄉去，才知道一些較為詳細的事。Later, when I went back to my hometown, I learned some of the more detailed circumstances.愛農先是什麽事也沒得做，因為大家討厭他。At first Ainong had nothing at all to do, because everyone disliked him.他很困難，但還喝酒，是朋友請他的。He was in great difficulty, yet still drank — friends stood him the drinks.他已經很少和人們來往，常見的只剩下幾個後來認識的較為年青的人了，然而他們似乎也不願意多聽他的牢騷，以為不如講笑話有趣。He had come to associate with people very little; the ones he still saw regularly were only a few younger men he had come to know later, but even they seemed unwilling to listen much to his grumbling, thinking it less amusing than telling jokes.

后来我回故乡去，才知道一些较为详细的事。爱农先是什么事也没得做，因为大家讨厌他。他很困难，但还喝酒，是朋友请他的。他已经很少和人们来往，常见的只剩下几个后来认识的较为年青的人了，然而他们似乎也不愿意多听他的牢骚，以为不如讲笑话有趣。

“也許明天就收到一個電報，拆開來一看，是魯迅來叫我的。”他時常這樣說。"Maybe tomorrow I'll get a telegram, and when I open it, it'll be Lu Xun sending for me." He often said this.

“也许明天就收到一个电报，拆开来一看，是鲁迅来叫我的。”他时常这样说。

一天，幾個新的朋友約他坐船去看戲，回來已過夜半，又是大風雨，他醉著，卻偏要到船舷上去小解。One day a few new friends invited him to take a boat to see a play; by the time they returned it was already past midnight, and a great storm was blowing besides; he was drunk, yet insisted on going to the boat's side to relieve himself.大家勸阻他，也不聽，自己說是不會掉下去的。Everyone tried to stop him, but he wouldn't listen, saying himself that he wouldn't fall in.但他掉下去了，雖然能浮水，卻從此不起來。But he did fall in, and although he could swim, he never came up again.

一天，几个新的朋友约他坐船去看戏，回来已过夜半，又是大风雨，他醉著，却偏要到船舷上去小解。大家劝阻他，也不听，自己说是不会掉下去的。但他掉下去了，虽然能浮水，却从此不起来。

第二天打撈屍體，是在菱蕩裏找到的，直立著。The next day, when they dragged for the body, it was found in a water-caltrop pond, standing upright.

第二天打捞尸体，是在菱荡里找到的，直立著。

我至今不明白他究竟是失足還是自殺。To this day I don't know whether he actually lost his footing or killed himself.

我至今不明白他究竟是失足还是自杀。

他死後一無所有，遺下一個幼女和他的夫人。He died leaving nothing behind at all, only a young daughter and his wife.有幾個人想集一點錢作他女孩將來的學費的基金，因為一經提議，即有族人來爭這筆款的保管權，——其實還沒有這筆款，——大家覺得無聊，便無形消散了。Some people wanted to raise a little money as a fund for his daughter's future schooling, but as soon as it was proposed, relatives came forward to contest who should hold the money — though in fact there was no money yet at all — and everyone found it so tiresome that the idea quietly fell apart.

他死后一无所有，遗下一个幼女和他的夫人。有几个人想集一点钱作他女孩将来的学费的基金，因为一经提议，即有族人来争这笔款的保管权，——其实还没有这笔款，——大家觉得无聊，便无形消散了。

現在不知他唯一的女兒景況如何？I don't know now how his only daughter is getting on.倘在上學，中學已該畢業了罷。If she is still at school, she must have graduated from middle school by now.

现在不知他唯一的女儿景况如何？倘在上学，中学已该毕业了罢。

十一月十八日。November 18th.