愛流汐張 The Ebb and Flow of Love

愛流汐漲The Tide of Love Rises

爱流汐涨

月兒底步履已踏過嵆家底東牆了．孩子在院裏已等了許久，一看見上半弧底The moon's steps had already crossed over the eastern wall of the Ji family's house. The child had been waiting in the courtyard for a long while, and as soon as he saw the upper crescent of its

月儿底步履已踏过嵆家底东墙了．孩子在院里已等了许久，一看见上半弧底

光剛射過牆頭，便忙忙跑到屋裏叫道，『爹爹，月兒上來了，出來給我燃香罷．』light just beam over the top of the wall, he hurried into the house and called out, 'Papa, the moon has come up—come out and light incense for me.'

光刚射过墙头，便忙忙跑到屋里叫道，『爹爹，月儿上来了，出来给我燃香罢．』

屋裏坐着一個中年的男子，他底心負了無量的愁悶．外面底月亮雖然還像去Inside the house sat a middle-aged man, his heart burdened with boundless sorrow. Though the moon outside was still as it had been last

屋里坐着一个中年的男子，他底心负了无量的愁闷．外面底月亮虽然还像去

年那麽圓滿，那麽光明，可是他對於月亮底情緒就大不如去年了．當孩子進來叫他year—so full, so bright—his feelings toward the moon were far from what they had been the year before. When the child came in and called

年那么圆满，那么光明，可是他对于月亮底情绪就大不如去年了．当孩子进来叫他

底時候，他就起來，勉强囘答說，『寶璜今晚上不必拜月，我們到院裏對着月光喫些him, he rose and answered reluctantly, 'Baohuang, there's no need to worship the moon tonight. Let's go out to the courtyard and, facing the moonlight, eat some'

底时候，他就起来，勉强囘答说，『宝璜今晚上不必拜月，我们到院里对着月光吃些

果品，同頭再出去看看別人底熱鬧．』fruit, and afterward go out together to see how lively it is elsewhere.'

果品，同头再出去看看别人底热闹．』

孩子一聽見要出去看熱鬧，更喜得了不得．他說：『爲什麽今晚上不拈香呢？The moment the child heard they were going out to see the festivities, he was overjoyed beyond words. He said, 'Why aren't we lighting incense tonight?記I remember

孩子一听见要出去看热闹，更喜得了不得．他说：『为什么今晚上不拈香呢？记

得從前是媽媽點給我底．』it was always Mama who lit it for me before.'

得从前是妈妈点给我底．』

父親沒有囘答他．但孩子底話很多，問得父親越發傷心了．他對着孩子不甚說His father did not answer him. But the child had so much to say, and his questions only made the father more sorrowful. He said little to the child in response,

父亲没有囘答他．但孩子底话很多，问得父亲越发伤心了．他对着孩子不甚说

話．只有向月不歇地嘆息．only sighing unceasingly toward the moon.

话．只有向月不歇地叹息．

『爹爹今晚上不舒服麽？'Papa, aren't you feeling well tonight?爲何氣喘得那麽厲害？』Why are you breathing so hard?'

『爹爹今晚上不舒服么？为何气喘得那么厉害？』

父親說：『是，我今晚上病了．你不是要出去看熱鬧麽？The father said, 'Yes, I'm ill tonight. Weren't you going to go out and see the festivities?可以敎素雲姐帶你去，我You can have Sister Suyun take you—I

父亲说：『是，我今晚上病了．你不是要出去看热闹么？可以教素云姐带你去，我

不能去了．』can't go.'

素雲是一個年長底丫頭，主人底心思、性地，她本十分明白，所以家裏無論大小Suyun was an older maidservant; she understood her master's thoughts and temperament very well, and so, in the household, whether great matters or small,

素云是一个年长底丫头，主人底心思、性地，她本十分明白，所以家里无论大小

事幾乎是她一人主持．她帶寶璜出門到河邊看看船上和岸上各樣底燈色；it was she almost alone who took charge. She took Baohuang out of the house to the riverside to look at the various lantern-lights on the boats and along the shore;便中就and in passing

事几乎是她一人主持．她带宝璜出门到河边看看船上和岸上各样底灯色；便中就

告訴孩子說，『你爹爹今晚不舒服了，我們得早一點囘去才是．』told the child, 'Your papa isn't feeling well tonight—we ought to go home a little early.'

告诉孩子说，『你爹爹今晚不舒服了，我们得早一点囘去才是．』

孩子說：『爹爹白天還好好地，爲何晚上就害起病來？』The child said, 'Papa was perfectly fine in the daytime—why has he fallen ill in the evening?'

孩子说：『爹爹白天还好好地，为何晚上就害起病来？』

『唉，你記不得後天是媽媽底百日嗎？』'Ah, don't you remember that the day after tomorrow is your mother's hundredth day?'

『唉，你记不得后天是妈妈底百日吗？』

『什麽是媽媽底百日？』'What is Mama's hundredth day?'

『什么是妈妈底百日？』

『媽媽死掉，到後天是一百天底工夫．』'It has been a hundred days since Mama died, and the day after tomorrow marks it.'

『妈妈死掉，到后天是一百天底工夫．』

孩子實在不能理會那「一百日」底深密意思，素雲只得說．『夜深了．咱們囘家The child truly could not grasp the deep, hidden meaning of that "hundred days," so Suyun could only say, 'It's late. Let's go

孩子实在不能理会那「一百日」底深密意思，素云只得说．『夜深了．咱们囘家

去罷．』home.'

去罢．』

素雲和孩子囘來底時候，父親已經躺在牀上，見他們囘來，就說，『你們囘來了．』When Suyun and the child returned, the father was already lying on the bed; seeing them come back, he said, 'You're back.'

素云和孩子囘来底时候，父亲已经躺在床上，见他们囘来，就说，『你们囘来了．』

她跑到牀前囘答說，『二舍，我們囘來了．晚上大哥兒可以和我同睡，我招呼他，好不She hurried to the bedside and answered, 'Second Master, we're back. Tonight the young master can sleep with me—I'll look after him, is that all

她跑到床前囘答说，『二舍，我们囘来了．晚上大哥儿可以和我同睡，我招呼他，好不

好？』right?'

父親說：『不必．你還是睡你底罷．你把他安置好，就可以去歇息，這里沒有什麽The father said, 'No need. You should sleep in your own place. Once you've settled him, you may go and rest—there's nothing

父亲说：『不必．你还是睡你底罢．你把他安置好，就可以去歇息，这里没有什么

事．』the matter here.'

這個七歲底孩子就睡在離父親不遠底一張小牀上．外頭底鼓樂聲，和樹梢底This seven-year-old child then slept on a small bed not far from his father's. The sound of drums and music outside, and the

这个七岁底孩子就睡在离父亲不远底一张小床上．外头底鼓乐声，和树梢底

月影，把孩子嬲得不能睡覺．在睡眠底時候，父親本有命令，不許說話；moon's shadow among the treetops, teased at the child so that he could not sleep. At bedtime the father had always given the order that no one was to speak;所以孩子只得so the child could only

月影，把孩子嬲得不能睡觉．在睡眠底时候，父亲本有命令，不许说话；所以孩子只得

默聽着，不敢發出什麽聲音．listen in silence, not daring to make a sound.

默听着，不敢发出什么声音．

樂聲遠了，在近處底雜響中，最激刺孩子底，就是從父親那里發出來底涰泣聲．The music grew distant, and amid the mixed sounds nearby, what stirred the child most sharply was the sound of sobbing coming from his father.

乐声远了，在近处底杂响中，最激刺孩子底，就是从父亲那里发出来底涰泣声．

在孩子底思想裏，大人是不會哭底．所以他很詫異地問，『爹爹你怕黑麽？In the child's mind, grown-ups never cried. So he asked in astonishment, 'Papa, are you afraid of the dark?大貓要來Is a big cat coming to

在孩子底思想里，大人是不会哭底．所以他很诧异地问，『爹爹你怕黑么？大猫要来

咬你麽？bite you?你哭什麽？』他說着就要起來，因爲他也怕大貓．Why are you crying?' As he said this he was about to get up, for he too was afraid of the big cat.

咬你么？你哭什么？』他说着就要起来，因为他也怕大猫．

父親阻止他，說，『爹爹今晚上不舒服，沒有別的事．不許起來．』The father stopped him, saying, 'Papa is just not feeling well tonight, nothing else is wrong. You mustn't get up.'

父亲阻止他，说，『爹爹今晚上不舒服，没有别的事．不许起来．』

『咦，爹爹明明哭了！'But Papa, you're clearly crying!我每哭底時候，爹爹說我底聲音像河裏水聲澩潲澩潲地Whenever I cry, Papa says my voice sounds like the water in the river, gurgling and splashing—

『咦，爹爹明明哭了！我每哭底时候，爹爹说我底声音像河里水声泶潲泶潲地

響；that's how it sounds;現在爹爹底聲音也和那個一樣．呀，爹爹；and now Papa's voice sounds just the same. Oh, Papa—別哭了．爹爹一哭．敎寶璜怎能睡覺呢？』stop crying. If Papa cries, how can Baohuang possibly sleep?'

响；现在爹爹底声音也和那个一样．呀，爹爹；别哭了．爹爹一哭．教宝璜怎能睡觉呢？』

孩子越說越多，弄得父親底心緒更亂．他不能用什麽話來對付孩子，只說，『璜兒The more the child talked, the more his father's feelings were thrown into disorder. Unable to find words to deal with the child, he only said, 'Huang'er,

孩子越说越多，弄得父亲底心绪更乱．他不能用什么话来对付孩子，只说，『璜儿

，我不是說過，在睡覺時不許說話麽？haven't I told you that you mustn't talk while going to sleep?你再說時，爹爹就不疼你了．好好地睡罷．』If you speak again, Papa won't love you anymore. Be good and sleep now.'

，我不是说过，在睡觉时不许说话么？你再说时，爹爹就不疼你了．好好地睡罢．』

孩子只覆說一句，『爹爹要哭，敎人怎樣睡得着呢？』以後他就靜默了．The child only repeated once more, 'If Papa is going to cry, how can anyone possibly fall asleep?' After that he fell silent.

孩子只覆说一句，『爹爹要哭，教人怎样睡得着呢？』以后他就静默了．

這晚上底催眠歌，就是父親底抽噎聲．不久孩子也因着這聲就發出微細的鼾That night's lullaby was the sound of his father's stifled sobbing. Before long the child, lulled by that sound, began to breathe with a faint

这晚上底催眠歌，就是父亲底抽噎声．不久孩子也因着这声就发出微细的鼾

息；snore;屋裏只有些雜響件着父親發出哀音．in the room there were only scattered sounds mingling with the father's mournful voice.

息；屋里只有些杂响件着父亲发出哀音．